Thursday, September 17, 2009

It's because I'm not 100%...

Or maybe because the latest evolution/incarnation/version of me wears her heart on her sleeve?

It's the bus again...As a creature of habit, I sit on the left side of the bus in the section of seats that face one another, as close to the driver as I can get. I've always done this, everywhere, every time. In Mexico this was the bestest place to sit (facing forward) right behind the driver because you got to share in his fan on the super hot muggy humid days.

Anyhow, the other day when all the seats on the left were taken, I grudgingly sat on the right side and though it affords you a wonderful view of Seattle Pacific University, you also get a view of all the sailboats off the Ballard Bridge. The first time I saw them I was amazed at how huge the area off the Ballard bridge really is, all those boats....all those people who might be getting ready to set sail, or are visiting, or just came back from an adventure...and it depressed me to no end.

Seeing as I was in the midst of all the broken hip/pain nonsense, my mood was thrashed.

This morning the bus was once again left-side full, so I sat on the right side and focused intently on my sock's toe so I would miss the whole boat show...except instead of driving into the brilliant sunlight and amazing vistas...we drove into the fog.

When on the bridge? You could barely see anything beyond the windows. It was as if we had driven into the set for the latest Stephen King movie.

You've no idea how happy that made me...

Except...now that I'm not drowning in the worry, whines, and utter depression of limping around for the rest of my life and simply fighting off silly little things like sinus infections and the coming swine plague...I'm curious to know if I can stand the view...

3 comments:

Bezzie said...

YOu need to start a jar to drop your pennies in (I nearly typed "penis" there...yikes.) And turn that sadness into your own boat.

erin said...

I bet you would love the view now that you are climbing your way out of all the pain and yuck. That's sort of my benchmark for assessing my own happiness level... when I'm genuinely happy for other people's happiness, I know I'm in a good place. When I avoid those people because I can't take their happiness, well, that's the ick place.

rita said...

I hate the ick place. I hate winter. I hate being cold. I usually go through this every winter, hating the weather (even when it's sunny, it's still cold) and wishing my life away, wishing it was summer. Summer here lasted about 6 weeks this year. Another winter on its way, with more whining....