Free at Last!

Hello fellow unemployed!

Well, technically I'm not unemployed as I do work for a wonderful temp agency, well, that is, when they can find me work. Otherwise I do feel like one of the "under employed" of America. The reason I chose them is that they get long-term contracts so I don't have to worry about a day here, a day there, hours here, a half day somewhere else...

This is all well and good as long as I don't have a 3.5 week trip to Italy with my XMIL looming. No one wants a temp that will NEED a temp in the middle of their stint. I was supposed to still be at my last assignment...but then they sold the company a million times and the 10th became EVERYONE's last day, instead of the 23rd...or whatever perfect last day that had been. Timing is everything. So now they are struggling (or so they say) to find me something to "fill in" the time, you know, to "keep me busy." Else I go insane...

I'm having my doubts anything will be coming my way until after I'm back from my sojourn. So I might have to go to Italy 2 paychecks poorer. Good thing I've been saving for the trip, eh? So I'll be able to pay my bills (cuz they don't care), but maybe not do any shopping while in Italy. (sniff) I know, I know, you all feel soooooo sorry that I'll be in ITALY that way.

Does it help if I tell you all I've decided to call the trip my severance package? You know, my "reward" for what still feels like almost 8 lost years of my youth married to a guy who would dump me like yesterday's garbage? A fellow I'd known for over 12 years and had come to regard as literally a part of me. That sounds kinda corny, and maybe a little awful, but it's how I feel some days, like maybe this morning as I look over what I still need to do before I go.

Don't get me wrong, I do love my XMIL and can't wait to spend time with her. I'm not "cutting her off" after this trip. We have so much in common it's unreal. I need to find a new name for her though. My "friend" is not enough. Hee hee, I could call her "mom," but now that I'm not married to X, it might confuse people into thinking she's my mom and X was the SIL :).

I think I rely too heavily on labels...or maybe others rely too heavily on them and I'm just trying to make it easier for everyone. There's a thought to explore about myself, eh?

Okay, my room isn't doing well in the "cleaning itself" department, so I should go hurry it along. It is amazing how messy things get when you're not at home to keep an eye on the encroaching detritus.